For many, 2019 has been a year of ups, downs and many stories. We know you have a lot to tell us and we have asked that, as one big family, we all share our stories, joy, pain, wins, losses and successes through the year. For Ruth, the year was absolutely rough, but being alive is the most important thing.
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Whew! 2019 was the year I didn’t die. Let me just put it like that.
I got a new job as a PSS for a big pensions firm. I already envisioned myself in ‘mad money’ this year. I also got into a relationship that lasted for 2 months.
Through my job, I met this amazing guy. He wasn’t my spec, but I was just sexually attracted to him. Let me just leave it here. I also realized my job was corporate slavery; the insults, pressure from our Line Manager was too much.
You know those kinda jobs where they talk down on you during MPR, and you start thinking of your life.
This year I didn’t save one naira, I was spending a lot on transportation and house stuff and didn’t even have enough to get by.
I got into another relationship where after the sex, the guy blocked me. I think I just have poor taste in men, so I decided to stay away till I upgrade. This same year, I was and still in a lot of debt. My phone was stolen twice!
When I pass 3rd mainland bridge, I always wonder how it would feel to just end it all. I cried this year than I ever have before.
I never really understood why someone would think of taking their life until I started seeing it as a way out of my problems. Nothing worked for me this year, except the fact that I am alive and my mom is healthy.
I always thought of just sleeping and never waking up, I prayed to God to just help me end it. I guess I am not ready yet.
I just thank God I didn’t die this year!
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